Hi @lakshmi,
Thank you for raising this great question.
Vulnerably, I feel a little bit afraid in answering because it is such a weighty and complex subject.
I donāt want to express a strong opinion when I am still sorting through this question myself.
As Iāve reflected on this theme, I went back to my starting point. A compact summary is something like:
God loves me, I am beloved, I love God and others.
So how does fear fit into that?
Often, fear is a vital signal that I need to pay attention to a potential or actual danger.
If someone threatens to kill me, I will be afraid!
Consider Matthew 26:36-39,
Then Jesus came with them to a place called Gethsemane, and he told the disciples, āSit here while I go over there and pray.ā
Taking along Peter and the two sons of Zebedee, he began to be sorrowful and troubled.
He said to them, āI am deeply grieved to the point of death. Remain here and stay awake with me.ā
Going a little farther, he fell facedown and prayed, āMy Father, if it is possible, let this cup pass from me. Yet not as I will, but as you will.ā
Robert Mounce, in the UTB commentary, points out the validity of the GNB translation, āThe sorrow in my heart is so great that it almost crushes me.āā
D.A. Carson writes, āIt suggests a sorrow so deep it almost kills.ā
Is it reasonable to say that Jesus was afraid of the cross?
Perhaps some Christians would say no, he wasnāt. Iām not sure myself. But it at least raises the question: could Jesus be afraid and yet not sin?
Because despite this intense feeling of sorrow, Jesus remained steadfast in prayer: āMy Father, if this cannot pass unless I drink it, your will be done.ā
My current understanding would be that fear itself is not sinful.
The more interesting question is whether we respond to fear in a sinful way.
One option is to stuff our fear and pretend we are not afraid (though we are).
Pete Scazzero writes:
Unhealthy developments are inevitable when we fail to understand ourselves as whole people. For some reason, however, we persist in exalting the spiritual over the emotional.
Over time, this unbiblical mindset has led to a view that regards emotions (especially sadness, fear, and anger) not just as less than spiritual, but as opposed to the Spirit. In the minds of many, shutting out emotions has actually been elevated to the status of virtue.
Denying anger, ignoring pain, skipping over depression, running from loneliness, avoiding doubts, and denying sexuality has become an acceptable way of working out our spiritual lives.
Many Christian leaders I meet are emotionally numb. They have little to no awareness of their feelings. When I ask them how they feel, they may use the words āI feel,ā but what they report are only statements of fact or of what they think. Their emotions are in a deep freeze.
Their body language, tone of voice, and facial expressions indicate that emotions are present, but they are not aware enough to identify them.
Another option is for the fear to overwhelm us. Again, this is not to blame people. If I am robbed, I will be afraid! It may take me months or years to recover from the trauma of the attack. For instance, I might be quite afraid of going outside after dark for an extended season of time. The blame in this situation belongs to the aggressor, not to the survivor.
At the same time, we want to empower ourselves and others so that fear doesnāt have the final word. This is where I find freedom in trusting God and living purposefully - even when Iām scared.
Starting a new ministry is scary. There were times when I wondered if we would have the financial resources to keep going. I was afraid of failure. And so on. But instead of giving up on Uncommon Pursuit, I brought these fears to the Lord and to others, and found the strength to keep showing up to help others.
And thatās the option we want to move towards, with the help of God.
To be aware of our fears. To experience them for what they are. To know that God is our Friend, that God is with us, and that God can take care of us.
Letās say I think, āWhat if I buy a $2,000,000 building for the ministry.ā Then I consider the mortgage and get afraid - we canāt afford that. Then, because I am afraid of paying that bill, I decide not to make this decision. In that case, listening to my fear means Iāve operated with wisdom. It would be crazy foolish to sign a contract for a $2M property at this early stage of the ministry!
But letās say I wonder, āI think my friend will be upset if I ask him about God. But itās time to see if we might discuss these issues. Iāll be gentle and respectful, I wonāt be pushy or rude. Still, I need to bring it up.ā I might feel afraid of their reaction - and go ahead anyways. In that case, listening to my fear might lead me to pray, to consider my approach, and yet to be bold. Fear might prompt me to take action with dependence upon God and real care for my friend.
All that to say, I think fear is complex, and we have to find wisdom for each situation. The end goal, however, is to be emotionally connected to ourselves and the world around us, that we might love God and others.
Thatās my thoughts for now, but I have a lot to learn on this subject. I look forward to hearing other perspectives.